Pride Week

My brother is currently attending his first pride parade this weekend.  From the time he came out to me I said I wanted to go with him, supporting him, buy alas I was not invited.   I feel a bit hurt, but mostly left out.  We are family and yet I don't feel that there's any part of his life that I fit into anymore.   Since thanksgiving last year he's only spent one holiday with me, Christmas.   It hurts more than anything to be abandoned by family on any holiday.   I will be spending more holidays with mom, and creating a new family for myself.  I don't want to feel alone anymore.  I hope I can fit in.
Toronto pride just seems like so much fun, no one could possibly have a bad time.  Best of all, nobody gives a fuck what you wear or how you look.   It's about love and tolerance and accepting all people.  It's a community and everyone comes together.   This year however there was a threat made to the first gay female premiere who will be attending the parade and all other attendees.   I don't remember that ever happening before in Toronto.   Maybe it has though, and it just gets discovered and handled efficiency by the police and they don't want to scare the public.   This year though city TV, and other yet unnamed media sourced received a letter threatening action.   I've told my brother to be careful.   I don't want something like what happened in Boston this year happening here.   We're Canadians and we're better than that.   I hope he takes lots of pictures.   Years ago I used to watch on TV, but I guess over the years it has gotten to raunchy to air live.   There are very very skimpy costumes and lots of toplessness.   Imagine celebrating a birthday at pride.  Would anything be more memorable?  Could anything ever live up to that?